August 29, 2012

August 26, 2012

Until we meet again Deer Isle...


So.... this was my farewell view before we headed back from
Deer Isle, Maine yesterday at sunrise.
This trip was fabulous... Amazing nature...outdoor activities.... ARTISTS ARTISTS ARTISTS... INCREDIBLE farming... delicious fresh home grown produce, eggs, cheeses.... handmade food... and craft...
Nice nice people... new friends, old friends, potters, writers, gallery owners, painters, black smiths, metal smiths, multi- media artists....cooks...
Dogs... cats, chickens, pigs, goats, SEALS...
Standup Paddle Boarding in the bay.... scrounging for drift wood and inspirational shots along the coast...
Our puppy swimming and catching a ride on our stand up paddle boards...
Our sons harvesting 75 mussels for dinner, fishing, swimming, boating, paddling, finding insects and starfish and the SEA URCHIN...
LOBSTAH LOBSTAH and MORE LOBSTAH!
Amazing sunrises and sunsets...
Oh and WINE....

So let me back up... I was working on these pieces before I left... Hope to get the teapots into the kiln tonight...

This was my car knitting on the way down and back.... more to do but close to finished... It's a mercerized cotton yarn with texture(picked up on the boston trip) Hope to finish the "Wrap" soon to wear it... Plus... I have other knitting to get to...
This was one of the many views and the SEALS would swim around a little island out there making wide circles around the stand up paddle boards!! They are like DOGGIES!!!






Inspirational rock.
These are some driftwood finds..
Crazy inspirational tree roots...

LUSCIOUS cabbages planted at Four Seasons Farm!

The view from the studios at Haystack School of Craft.
I WILL do a workshop there... eventually...
More rock inspiration.
and more...
and more...

Listen.... it was an amazing trip and we seriously have thoughts regarding longer term plans up there someday... but for now... it is back to it... The Garden State... full of inspiration and ideas, activity and peace... I already took a walk and paddled on the river here to GRASP on to the feelings that we
had there. It is a magically wonderful peaceful place... you should go... if you can. 
So worth the 10 hour plus drive!!!!



August 16, 2012

Taking a Break

Deer Isle, Here we come!
Going to enjoy Down East, Maine.
I plan to relax, walk, stand-up paddle, sketch, do yoga, meditate, walk, explore, maybe bike, relax, try to check out Haystack, sketch, write, read, do puzzles, drink wine and eat LOBSTER!







Now....
If the kids can get along, and the weather can cooperate, I hope to pull myself out of the latest black cloud that prompted that last post...  Pottery explosions, freak accidents of pieces toppling over, kiln stilts sticking to a shelf and then dropping and cracking huge, labor intensive platters.



And then,
I think about how we must take each moment of each day with presence and embrace life.

A woman I knew as a beautiful lady, rocker and amazing photographer was heading to a job and stopped at a gas station complaining of a headache.
Then she was gone. Aneurism.
You NEVER know, so seize it.

Your light lives on, Linda.

August 12, 2012

Impasse





















See that blank space?
That is where my head is.
Or is it...?
You know how light/white is actually All COLORS?
Well...THIS is actually where I am now...internally.
EVERYTHING and NOTHING.
Mid-life crisis?
Nah...I have these crisis issues throughout my life so I can't chock it up to that.

I am referring to my art but it is not like I live in a vacuum(although, sometimes when I am working in my studio, it feels that way)...It IS EVERYTHING and NOTHING.
WHAT AM I DOING?
Certainly not saving the world...
Of course, I never really set out to do that.
I am intensely drawn to create, to MAKE, to use my hands, etc, and produce.

And so I start to analyze...
"Why Clay?"
Well, Clay drew me in with the touch of it.
The malleability.
The way in which it responds to touch ...but that is fleeting too...
The way it changes at different stages.
It is so responsive at first and then it is eventually DONE.

It is like Clay is telling me,
"I gave you a chance back there and you blew it...
You need to pay more attention to me when I need attention...
NOT when you feel like it...Miss Thing!"

Now, this starts me thinking,
"WHY CLAY?"
Well... As we all know(ceramic artists especially),
She/He is really tricky, that little Clay You-Know-What...
She/He lures you in and entices you and all while letting you see from existing creations what she/he is capable of becoming, as well as coyly letting you infer other future outcomes...
"If I could do that(for Voulkos, Karnes,Takeazu,fill in name of masterful artist....),
you might want to see what else I can do...Come on baby, give it a try, I dare you..."

A little slutty, no?
I mean, really.
And so for about 9 years now, I have let that little trollop in...
flirting with me, taking time away from my family, other interests,
exercise at times, giving me back problems... you name it...
And yet...Clay has thrown me a few bones:
Happiness when pieces please me visually.
Interesting discoveries that lead to more, heavier involvement.
Accolades and purchase from others that reinforce the direction I am going in.
The huge array of possibilities of what can be done with Clay...endless...

That "YOU-KNOW-WHAT" has me wrapped around his/her little finger and messes with me on a regular basis.
AND, I can't help wondering if he/she is keeping me from getting out there and meeting some NEW interest/medium/life interest...
If you are in a relationship already it's pretty hard to put yourself out there to meet others...
Just sayin'.
I mean, I feel like Clay and I have been heavily seeing each other over these nine years...
We have a history, wonderful memories, as well as knock-down, drag-out fights and really, it can be a little difficult...(exploring abuse and toxicity)...

I am in a strange place.
(As a fashion designer, I NEVER thought that I would leave....)
I consider myself an artist. I do.
What that means, REALLY, can be rather loaded...
But, is it time to explore other mediums(or even techniques, applications,genres) more seriously...
I have gone out on a few friendly dates while maintaining this "serious relationship" but I have continued to return to Clay...
I continue to knit...but not any serious fiber work...
Drawing, only to sketch pots...
As I type this, I have a sinking feeling...
Sort of like I am being a cheater even  revealing these thoughts...

Meanwhile...I won't likely be DROPPING Clay like a hot potato...
BUT... before I DIG in even deeper, I feel like I should put these thoughts out there
and ask the universe for thoughts, opinions, empathy?
I have always seen other mediums coming later in life...

Don't get me wrong... I don't want to work specifically with Glass or Metal....
I may want a "three-some" with them some day...
NO... it is more about remnants of my past...
Fiber, Textiles, Jewelry... perhaps... Drawing even...
And I really think I am just getting an itch that will be satisfied if I continue to explore...without abandoning...

Just feeling very "carpe diem" but also not sure I want to do play the field so much that I never have any real intimacy and rich relationship...

On that note... I will be going into my overheated(bisque is going) studio to
"hook-up" with Clay and see what today brings...
Please don't mention this to Clay as it may just be a phase and I don't want to rock the boat....